Ouuch,,,

I was thinking about a friend who had her ankle bone cracked out of no reason, except maybe the age she is in. She is 62. All of the sudden she can't walk any more, she has been in bed and on wheel chair for almost three months now. She accepted the new phase in her life very well. I think her good and positive nature, of course prayers we have prayed for her healing, contributed to the fast progress of her recovery. God really gives you power for the hour, grace for the trial when you have it, not before. She didn't know how she was going to coop with it before hand, but when it happened she did accept it and had the power and grace for her new routines of her life. What makes me think about her is because I felt down today after conducted the teacher workshop in the village of Noida. I was waving at the teacher as I was walking forward without looking down or where I was going.  over rods of iron that were on the side road. And I tripped The pain of my scratched of the palm of my hand was excruciating. I went to the hospital got it cleaned up, dressed and had tetanus and pain killer injection. Then I had to start with the new condition I was in. I was still driving but the other person who was with me changed the gears back and forth for me. I can't use my left hand, sort of limited of I can't do. But God gives us grace for the trial and power for the hour, and strength for the battle at the time we need it, not beforehand. 

Scream

Yes, sometimes screaming is good for you, at least I think. But it doesn't make any difference to someone who doesn't get it why you scream when you normally don't. Well, actually it's no use because whether you scream or not, to a certain person who is insensitive to the screaming, it's a waste of your breath. I realized it totally wasted my energy that I screamed, even though I was absolutely frustrated. Then I remembered the book that I am reading about taking the blame. It's not because of what the person is like that I screamed, it was me, I lost it. I was supposed to be able to just take is in stride that the person had his reason on insisting  me to do something that I didn't feel like doing. Once I stopped trying to make the person understand my point of view, we quieted down. I realized that there was no need for me to scream. I think there was more to it to what the person was thinking about me. Again, I can't let the person's reactions, thoughts and comments about me to deter what I am supposed to do and act. It's not easy but it's worth learning this art of inter acting with others. 

No Action Talk Only

Nothing bothers me more than when someone just shifts their responsibility to others, or they just talk about what others should do but themselves. Well, there is always something that we can learn from from each situation or a person. First of all we can cultivate our listening skill without being influenced, ha! Second, you find out what the person is like. It's not how much they talk, but how much they are doing. So you judge people from their actions more than from their words. There is saying that says "empty vessel, makes loud noise".  Meaning that an empty person in their head or heart who only makes a lot of noises and doing nothing about what he is talking about.

Let us be known by our actions more than by our words. Or making your words and actions be the result of what the nature of a person we are.  

Sanity

It's so hard to stay sane in this insane part of the world. I don't know how insane the other parts of the world are, but I can truly say that sometimes you just need flow with the insanity if you wish you to be sane, and not to be disturbed by what your perceptions might be or how things should be or be done. 

Try again

Every day is a new day to start all over again. It's not easy, but it's a given opportunity by God to try again, to begin what you didn't do yesterday, or something that you didn't get to it. I am learning that I have to tell myself to do it, just do it, start again where I left off. For example, learning a new language, or doing exercise, or taking time to hear from God. If I didn't get to do it, have the time for it, I reassess my time that I spend on, and find out there is time for me to do all these, I just need to be more consistent, more organized, disciplined and have the determination. Of course God is the source of my help, also some movies or characters that I have seen and read, helps to remind me to do so. William Carey is one the great character on learning the languages. So I am asking him to help me but I also need to do my part. All that to say, yes, we can start all over again.

God alone

Keep thinking, keep thinking how can I do and accomplish anything with my limited ability and strength. Of course I can't, I don't know how people can say that they are indispensable, and that they don't need God's help. I keep thinking I can do lots of prayers for the things that I can't do, so the Lord will do it for me. I keep thinking, ha, doing a lot of thinking here, that how can I stretch myself more with all that I am already doing, feeling I should do more, but I come to the conclusion that I am limited, but God is not. And I am going to do what I can do, with the best I can, I don't think I can't even do that, and the rest trusting God to do what I can't. I think it's just a pride trip and self effort trip, thinking that we have to work harder that we are already doing, and it's wrong to stop and enjoy life, like just to chill out or something. I heard from a talk that actually to rest in God we must put an effort to it. It's not natural that we want to just take rest, especially trusting God to do more than we can. Only God alone can do what we can't do. Only God alone has the power and strength that He gives to us to accomplish what He wants us to accomplish, if you know what I mean. God alone!